Denver Dating Blog

I am still going out with that girl named Paulina tomorrow night but tonight I am not doing anything special. Some of my friends are going to be sitting around smoking weed, drinking, and playing video games and I will probably go join them and do that. The thing is that I have been talking to this new girl who messaged me last night. Her name is Candice and she is only 21. I am like omg there is a hot blond 21 year old girl who is messaging me and blowing me kisses and shit. I told her we should talk on MSN and she was like yeah sure and we have been talking all last night and now all today as well. I barely got any work done today at work because I was chatting with her so much. I hope my boss doesn't monitor our internet usage and see all the stuff I was typing to her because that would be very embarrassing. My boss kept asking me why I was spending so much time in my office and so little time on the sales floor today and I told him I was following up on the web marketing I had been doing and the email inquiries that I had got through our company website.

The company I work for has a website and they get inquiries about new and used vehicles all the time and then they get divvied up between all the salesman. I am not sure if he bought it or not but I know I can't do the same thing tomorrow otherwise I will definitely get fired.

I had a really good month in January for sales. That is because I am really good. I figured I could take a day or two and chill and talk to some girlies online sheesh. My co-workers are always finding some excuse as to why they aren't selling as many units as they would like to. They blame the economy, they blame the customer, they blame the holidays. They should blame themselves and take responsibility for themselves but ahhh now I am going down a futile path of frustration. Forget it about.

I went on a date on Saturday with one of the girls I was talking to. She is 25 years old, her name is Paulina and she is from Poland. She only moved to Denver from Poland 3 years ago but she speaks pretty good English. Yes there is definitely a cultural difference and sometimes she doesn't totally understand me but I feel we communicate well and she seems to have quite a bit in common with me. One of the thing that surprised me is that she likes the same kind of music as me which is mainly rock from the 90's like Nirvana, Pearl Jam, and Soundgarden. She is going to school her on some kind of scholarship program for foreign students. She said she didn't have a chance to go to University in Poland because she didn't have the money so she had to work in a factory and constantly apply for scholarships. She is very bright and was able to finally win one and she has been going to school here in Denver for 3 years now and is almost finished her MBA. I am not sure what she intends to do with her MBA once she has graduated but whatever she should do well in life which is cool.

I met her at a coffee shop instead of taking her out for dinner because I thought we were gonna have a huge language barrier going on and I didn't want to be in a stuffy environment like a restaurant if that happened. Of course it turned out otherwise and we had a great time chatting over coffee about our very different lives. She told me that all of her family is still in Poland and that they all work at the same factory that she worked at. It didn't sound like they were completely miserable, in fact she said they are a very humble family and even though they don't have much, the family was always happy and very loving etc having big dinners together with relatives etc on a constant basis. She said she had a boyfriend back in Poland but left him when she moved here. She said she had met a few guys here that she was going to school with but because she was older than everyone else she kept meeting younger guys and nothing ever worked out for her. At the end of the date we shared a nice kiss in the parking lot and we have been chatting online ever since. I am going to be taking her out for dinner this weekend.

It certainly has been an interesting week. Here we are on Friday and my mood has totally changed. It is amazing how emotional we are as creatures. Last week I was feeling all confused and unsure of myself and what I wanted etc but now after talking to a few different girls online and on the phone I feel totally different. I feel like I have some drive and determination. I have been speaking with so many different girls and when I say different I mean very different. I am talking to girls of all age brackets and ethnicities. It has been a refreshing experience to see how different each girl is. Some are passive, some are aggressive. Some are smart and some are not so much. Lol I don't want to say dumb because I am trying to politically correct here but yeah a couple of them are dumb. Of course the two dumbest ones are also two of the hottest girls. Go figure.

Talking to all these girls has helped my confidence tremendously because they are all so different yet they all have on thing in common... they are attracted to me. The reason I say this is because I have plenty of pics in my online profile at the dating site I am a member of and there would be no point in a girl having communication with me if she wasn't physically attracted to my photos I have on there for them to see. Knowing that all these girls are attracted me means a lot to me and the way that I interpret this is that I am going to be able to date a few of them and ultimately have relations with some of them, I mean it is inevitable at the rate I am going at. I just need to continue to constant pressure and communication with each one while at the same time continue to fill my hopper with new prospects. Lol this sounds like a sales training seminar but I guess it is all the same in the end. trying to convince someone of something.

I am working on going on a date with a few of these girls this weekend. It really depends on who replies first and who I setup a date with first. I am not being discriminatory at all towards any of the girls because I have recently learned that you can't judge a book by it's cover and that I have to actually meet each of these girls in public to determine whether or not we may be compatible, also to determine if there is any sexual chemistry there. I also want to listen to the sound of their voice in person and also be able to judge their body language and attitude. I should have something else to report about after the weekend is over.

OK so I have scrapped the idea of getting girls to fall in love with me and then break their hearts. I think I am finally over my ex now and I think maybe she did me a favour. I don't know how to explain it but for some reason I fell relieved that she cheated on me and left me. I know I wasn't totally happy with her or better yet I wasn't making her happy and I was feeling the effects of those actions and as a result I was feeling crappy if that makes any sense?

So with this new perspective I realized that I have too big of a heart and too heavy of a conscience to be going around breaking young girl's hearts to quote the king of pop. I am now kind of confused and I feel like my whole world has been turned upside down. I don't know if I want just a girlfriend or if I want just casual sexual flings. I dunno. All I know is I want something and I am not going to stop until I get it, whatever it is. Ok, this is not making a lot of sense but love never does make sense does it? There I go throwing around the world love. I am not sure I have ever truly been in love before. I know I have experienced lust before and codependency but neither of those constitute much of love do they?

What I am doing now is really just going through the online dating site and messaging whatever girl I feel like it. I think that I have been judging a book by its cover so to speak. I think that I am trying too hard to pick the right kind of girl. The truth is that I really don't know what kind of girl is going to make me happy. I don't think you can look on paper and say this is the girl for me. I think that maybe the kind of girl I will best gel with may be nothing I would have ever thought would be my type. I think it comes down to random things that put together can make for happiness. I think this has been part of my problem my whole life. I have always forced things that I think are right. I have not let things happen naturally. I think the big part of the problem here is that I have figured out that I am not "right" very often.

I see myself as an intellect but at the same time I make very bad decisions and I do stupid things. How can someone who is so smart, make such dumb choices? It makes me wonder if I am bright at all? Maybe I give myself too much credit. Maybe I am not as smart as I think. Maybe I am just as average as everyone else that I constantly put down. I think I need to start seeing a shrink. Maybe I can find an attractive shrink just like Tony did in the Sopranos. I wish they would bring that show back. I think it was an awesome series and I really like James Gandalfini. I am getting off on a weird tangent here so I am gonna go for now. I have more girls I need to message. I will let you know all how it goes soon. I promise.

I guess I am not as clever as I thought I was. I got an email from Samantha saying that she no longer wants to talk to me because she doesn't think that my intentions are sincere. She said I was in love with the idea of being in love but I wasn't really fully feeling those emotions. I don't know why she got all philosophical and shit on me or what lead her to draw this conclusion but I am hella pissed off that I failed. It makes me question my entire approach. Perhaps this is karma coming back to bite me in the ass.

When I was young I used to have some ridiculous ideals about life. I used to think that magic was possible. I used to believe in astrology, psychics and all that jazz. Where did the saying "all that jazz" come from anyway? I use it all the time and I have no idea where it's origin lies. When we fall in love, we just fall in love with ourselves is the way that Tom Chaplin puts it. He also says that love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme. Right now I am sitting outside with my laptop on my lap and it's kinda warm lol.

I don't remember exactly what age I was when I started to see all of these childish ideals crumble before me. They say that when you are 3 years old you develop death anxiety and that death anxiety is what spawns your destructive voice. It is born out of fear. The mind killer. Fear sucks and it can go fuck itself. The pipers calling you to join him - I never understood what that lyric meant. My older sister used to listen to Led Zeplin all the time.

When I entered into high school I remember still feeling somewhat optimistic about life. I don't know exactly how to explain clearly my definition of optimism. I think I was more ignorant than anything. I thought that the world was a certain way in my head and that excited me but then I learned that I was wrong and it wasn't like that at all. I had a pretty miserable and depressing time as an adolescent. I think a lot of people share similar experiences when it comes to childhood. When I look back now, yes I did have SOME good times but there was a blanket feeling of being depressed and feeling inferior to my peers. It is amazing how differently I think about life now compared to when I was a teenager. I was very angry and frustrated. I developed a very bad attitude toward life in general because I was angry that I wasn't getting respect from my peers. Even worse I felt like I was being victimized by them.

I am obviously a product of my mom and dad but it wasn't until recent that I realized how much influence my mom had on the man I am today. She overprotected me. I have often wished that I had grown up in a family where I had older brothers who would have kicked my ass and made me tougher. Having just one older sister made me a different person. I have been through things in my life that have toughened me up but I still am a pussy about certain things. Even though I KNOW what things I should change about myself doesn't mean that it's easy to do.

Chalk up another one on the big board.

Last night I met a new girl to fall in love with me. Her name is Samantha and she is a Virgo just like me. She loves punk rock music and so do I (not). Everything that she said she likes or loves I just said yeah I love that too. Which means that now I have to watch the tv show True Blood cuz I told her I loved that show and watched it all the time. Everytime she said what do you think about this about the show or what do you think of that I just gave some answer like "yeah totally". She is 24 years old and isn't as naive as the other two girls but she is still not smart enough to catch on to my insincerity. She said that family is really important to her and that she has 6 brothers and she is the only female. To me this is a huge challenge and will make things much more interesting when I go over to her place for dinner and have to get grilled by all her brothers. I bet you I can dupe them all into believing that I really do love their sister. What the fuck is love anyways? I believe that love is a just a misinterpreted electrical impulse produced by the human brain. I think that society breeds a race of people with unrealistic expectations. When we are young, we see the world in such a different light. We think that anything is possible and that love can conquer all obstacles. It isn't until you grow up and experience firsthand the cruel duality of man that you get a much clearer picture of how things work. Some people get extremely depressed when they come to realize this and other people turn to self medicating by doing drugs like smoking pot or drinking booze. I meet quite a few people who don't have a very good memory. I am lucky to be blessed with an exceptional memory. I feel sorry for those people with a shitty memory because they don't get to hold on to all the good memories they have from their childhood etc. Of course life is a double edged sword and that means I don't get to forget all the bad memories I have. I can only try and work on blocking out those negative memories and trying to just focus on the positive ones. At least I have something to work with... at least I have a chance unlike those people who simply forget everything. They say ignorance is bliss and I guess if you forget shit all the time than that would be similar to ignorance. I am starting to go off on a few tangents here. I am gonna end things here for now and go take a shower. I will make sure I don't have any big gaps in between my posts from now on because I know you guys are eager to hear how things are going, at least I assume that you are.

Hi everyone and sorry it has been already 8 days since my last post. I am trying to reduce the time I spend between posts for you guys. I am still working on my first fake long term relationship with that girl Cynthia and I have also met two other girls who I am now faking being in love with. As far as Cynthia goes, I have still not agreed to meet her. I keep telling her that I am too nervous and that we have such a special unique thing going on right now. I AM going to meet her, but I want to keep putting it off so that she wants me even more once we finally do meet. I will let you guys know when I actually decide to go meet her. Let me tell you about the other 2 girls on the hook.

The first girl is named Heather and she is 27 and she works in a flower shop. She is a really nice girl and a bit of a nerd but she is cute. She has these cute black rimmed glasses and is very shy. She doesn't look like she has had much experience with life in general, let alone with devious men like myself muhahahaha. She said she has been in a couple of relationships before but none of them were very serious, that she is still looking for mr. right. She thinks that I might be Mr. Right but she couldn't be more wrong. I am going to simply make her believe that I love her so that I can have that good girlfriend sex and also so that she will pamper me I think she is from Eastern Europe somewhere, that reminds me I need to ask her where exactly. She said she doesn't have a lot of friends and has a condo on the garden level and said she has lots of flowers and stuff in her garden and likes to sit out there and read books and drink coffee. She said she doesn't drink alcohol at all and doesn't smoke cigarettes or pot. I think this is good, cuz I want a nice earnest goody two shoes type girl that I can train in the bedroom and then dump once I am bored of her, the same way I was dumped by my ex.

The second girl I met online is named Julia and she is only 21 and still going to university. She thinks she has found some understanding mature older guy. She tells me that she thinks all the guys her age are too immature and don't understand her. She thinks that she is an old soul. She thinks that when she speaks she is saying some profound deep shit when in reality she is just annoying and talks too much. I am not sure how long I can tolerate being around this girl. Hopefully she puts out early so I don't have to waste too much time, effort, and money getting into her pants.

I am taking things slow with each girl so that they all fall in love with me slowly. I know that if I rush things I will not get the desired effect. My new goal is to have six full on girlfriends so I can have the girlfriend experience six times over.

That's right, it is on.

I have changed my online profile to say that I am them super-sensitive guy who is looking for a long term relationship. I think that being with a girl who is obsessed with me and thinks that I am in love with them would do anything I wanted and I could satisfy myself. I am tired of being screwed over and it is time for me to get revenge. Now I'm sure most of you are sitting there saying, yeah right Chad, you can't fake love. Others must be saying there is no way you could be that cold hearted... you won't be able to break it off once you are tired with her sexually. Only time will tell but I am convinced that men and women were not designed to live together, get married and all that shit. How many happy couples do you know that have been together longer than 6 years vs the amount of people that you know who tried it, failed, and are much happier now being alone. Ok I just sat back down after waling around for 5 minutes so I guess the rant is done... on to the good juicy stuff.

Her name is Cynthia and she is the sweetest thing you have ever seen. She seems really inexperienced at life and probably in bed as well. She has cherry red lips and I feel like I am watching a Duran Duran video when I look at this fine creature. She is 23 years old but she is not a mature 23, she is a naive cute petite flower of a woman. Calling her a woman would be pushing it. She has already said that she thinks I am cute and we have exchanged poems. I am going to be calling her tonight and talking to her on the phone. Wait until she hears my soft silky voice. It is going to make her pussy melt. Speaking of melts, I made a kickass tuna melt quasedillia the other day. Bombsauce. Ignorance is bliss, and innocence is a turn on to a lot of men. I still don't even know what gets me off. I have been so poisoned by the she devil that I call my exgirlfriend. I often wonder what she is doing. Sometimes I dwell on it while I am at work and I zone off and think of the world in some kind of twisted anime sense like Berserk. Makes me just want to fly away and sail over top of the city. Sucks that I don't have superpowers. The only power I have is over mere mortals like Cynthia. Humans are a funny breed. The more you expose them to the more they grow. Knowledge is power.

Cars are like women... I wish I had a snappy anecdote to add to this line but I don't. Anyways selling cars is easier than meeting girls and being in a relationship. I guess I sound kind of jaded but really I'm not. I'm just a bottom line guy and after being dumped it has changed me a bit and has made me more cold. I find myself being suspect of anything and everything around me now and the bad part is that half the time I AM getting screwed over in whatever small or large degree. I am started to assume the worst about people and I don't think this is a very healthy way to be living but I can't control it. Maybe I need to read some books about positivity, or maybe I just need to use this new found reference point to make lots of money, bang lots of chicks, and conquer the world! The jury is still out as to which way I will go.

Being dumped has affected me at work also. I have much less patience now for car buyers and I look at them all as idiots and I just want them to give me their money stfu and gtfo. Bah humbug. I also have a negative jaded view of women and I am very skeptical of women and don't have much faith in them to be well... faithful. I was always faithful to my ex girlfriend and now that I was cheated on, I think "fuck it" I can cheat too, in fact why be in a relationship at all? Why don't I just bang lots of chicks and stay single and life the life of reily? I couldn't think of a good reason not to, so that is my goal.

Since I have joined the online dating site I have met a wide variety of women. Some of them shy some of them forward and some of them just downright sluts who need to get nailed hard. I bet some of them are in relationships right now even. What I am trying to do is to just find the sluts who I can go over and bang and then chill out with maybe get a massage and leave. The girls who want long term relationships I am just going to lie to them and pretend I am in love with them so I can have sex with them. Yes I am evil. Being cheated on has forever tainted my heart black.

In fact I am going to go out of my way to make girls fall in love with me so I can bang them and then write about them here for you guys.

Hi my name is Chad and I am 27 years old. I have never owned a blog before but I decided that I would start to date girls online and I thought why not make a blog about it. So what can I tell you about myself? The last relationship I was in was 3 years ago. We were together for 4 years and I had planned on asking her to marry me and then have a few kids etc. I thought that we were happy, but I found out that she was cheating on me so I left her and started a new life. I have dated girls off and on since then, I have had the occasional one night stands etc but I would really like to meet someone I can fall in love with and eventually get married to.

I sell used cars for a living. Having been doing so for the last 8 years and I am quite good at it. I work for a place that only sells imports, no american cars etc. I am not your typical sleazy car salesman. I dress very nice and I like to sell with integrity. I am really into woodworking and cabinet making and I have a nice little wood shop in my backyard. I spend a lot of time back there working away and listening to music.